RACHANA OMKARPRASAD RAJPUT .

ye blog mere vaastey bilkull bekaar he aaj key taariekh main , 

haan ismain maine bohot likha ,

par maine wo sabb itne zyada , 

pyaar main badal diya , 

jiskey liye maine .

apnie khoon kie nadiyan bahayie . 

mere parivaar ne bahayie. 

aur , jinhone ne mere upar ye kiya tha . 

vey mujhe aur zyada , aur beintehaa . 

aur adhik pareshan kar rahe hain . 

aaj bhie . 

isie wajah se , yah 

patrika mere liye kuch nahi he . abbb .  

aap yadie ye parhngey , 

toh samjhiyega , kie , 

maine aur merey parivaar ne ,

itnaa balidaan diya he isss aek jeevan main , aur detey chale jaa rahe hain , 

key aapko , mere jeevan jaisie , shayad he aur koi misaal milegie, aur mill shaktie he . 

.....

ye bhie aap samajhiye , 

key ye sab kuch din dahade aur , 

bin kisie bhie prakaar ke khulase key bina hua he . 

bohot zyada sharmnaak baat he . 

par bohot saare log is main shamil hain , 

aur main aise logon ko , 

roz milti hoon , 

aur roz ye aaj bhi mujhe , 

dar pal , pareshan karte he rehte hain . 

mujhe merie is patrika se , 

bohot khed aur afsos he . 

main ye prarthana kartie hoon . 

key jeevan main , 

maine jo jo pratarnaa jhelie aur dekhie , 

aur jiskie main bhogidaar huie , 

aur aaj bhi hoon , 

wo , 

kisieke saath naa ho . 

bilkull naa ho . 

mere saath toh ho he rahi he . 

koi aur jeev , aagey bhie jeevan main kabhie iska 

bhogidaar naaa baney . 

~ mera naam rachana omkarprasad rajput he . 

aur mere naam , merie pehchaan , merey wajood , aur mere parivaar ke 

HINDU KSHATRIYA RAJPUT , hone key wajah se , 

mere saath , bohot saara atyadhik aatankie prakaar kaa , 

samajik manavadhikar kie avhelna kie gayie he . 

~ ummmeeed rakhti hoon , key aagey kisie bhi aur aurat ke saath vo sab naa hoye , 

jo jo mere saath hua , merie zindagie main .   

Baoujie key naam se , 

isss dakiyanoosie vehshie baqwass ko 

band karna chahungie . 

Pitajie ka Naam , OmkarPrasad GulabSingh Gaud Rajput He.

Mera Parivaar Raja Ram key Bhraataa , 

Raja Bharath jie  ke ,

seedhe vanshaj hain . 

BOHOT KOSHISH KAR KE , 

HUMEIN BOHOT ZYADA , 

AUR BEHADDDD PRATADIT KIYA JAA RAHA HE . 

YE AEK BHAYANAK SATYA GHATNA HE . 

JISKA AAJ TOH MERE PAAS KOI PRAMAAN NAHI . 

PAR . 

Raja Ram Bhagwaanjie batla kar gaye hain . 

key . 

Karuna Purshottam Kya He .   

JAI RAJA RAAM JIE KIE JAI . 

  

       

x

LOVE

Love.

the thing is in my previous beepees
I realised I was being excessively harsh on myself.
i feel Iam almost cruel to my own self sometimes.
why does my endless love not include my own self ? what about self compassion ?
self judgement is cruelty, too, one should love2 accept and love yourself as you are ...
~
yeah Iam and I was one of a kind dingbat ...
but i am equally and extremely well adjusted too.
i plainly and simply received too much deception for one life.
~
it also came my way cause I over indiswd on simplicity and innocence.
whoever were oppressive 2 my happiness, saw i was simple, and took advantage.
i kept trusting ....it won't be that way this time ..
and honestly.
still it is better to trust ...and lose it ...
then to be cold hearted and not ...
...
so anyway
it's better 2 insist on innocence than not.
this is my ...end.. ..
i wish garishness was my deal, but it isn't..
..
then my Muslim friends ...who could see my ...
confusion a day said -
Allah ke aagey Sab nangey kgharey hain

~dekha jaye toh sach hie hai.
....
phir bhi apney ko dhaanktey rehna yehie
humara ussool hona chahiye
....
anyway..
....
so what exactly an I trying to say by my today's.. want ....
~ I am still discovering unfolding fitting and decoding

but one of these is:
# yes I do not wana remain this excessively unhappy or in a rut or not being able to fully forgive my past hurts &move on.
.
#yes I wana accept myself as I am &work towards better and better n super beautiful future for me and for all ....

~ yet this stage is the mix ...where I am yet to feel tge sense of liberation ..there is still suffering 2 be released ......

i am desperate if I am not able to seek any original solutions to self. that making me xrestless.
.

~one day at a time
one baby step at a time
as long as there is a vision
it has 2 happen
....
♡♡♡
considering the wayvi was .
one day in usa
i was forced 2 ask myself this question
..
why did I come here at all
why did I do this
why all this misplacermrmt
...
i went back on my time and realised
.
i was tead scared while i was boarding those flights
i was lonely extremely
hurt miserably
and just armedcwith a vision
a resolute sense of idealism
inside of me and nothing else
why should that make a woman
risk herself thousands n thousands of miles away?
...
pat came the answer!
...
it was finally the eve's Apple!
all that innocence has to drop
it was late in time
but I guess
i had to chew on my humble apple bite
i had to travel so far away, put so much distance and risk in the middle
2 gain sumthing that wasn't coming my way
i was forcing providence for supplication
..
anyway
I'm still some way away.
..
hopefully tommorrow, in one day
all love will be mine
&; another phool in lover's paradise
will rise
to merit her shine.
..
khuda hafiz ..every 1 ..
Ramadan kareim.


( iwrote this during ramzan. so i am leaving it this way. thanks to all. ) 
take care. 
a'love yll

abda dabri doo

there was a major mishap
my phone email picked up a virus
couldnot log onto any accounts relatex to gmail
later got a call from a friend saying
something hopeless about is being circulated
please check
i have been so busy doing life
really.
ofcourse because I have taken up so many difficult paths upon myself;
i cannot understand why any one will be so vela to try and hack a female's account for what reason ? I'm not even any important person or celebrity. imagine haven't even had time to fix that yet. yes that's how much in strigle I'm allalone. @nd even for this strigle im infinitely gratefull.

instead of hating try love
instead of tròubling others please try to provide them with whatever you can.
there are days when I myself don't have anything and yet I give away the last morsel of either money or food i may have saved just because I don't like to go through scarcity complex. not for me. not for any1.

be generous
try at least
it's very difficult and painful in internal being........
but it's great to deal with every one else.

just because all the world isn't awakened to this
that's why we hurt each other

try love
make it a habit
make it yours
even if there will ve no returns
still it is the right n correct thing to do
it's the omkara
your a participant
create beauty light hapiness joy giving love peace true inspiring life
tc beauties